I am very disappointed with myself. Very disappointed indeed.

Today just marks a day of reflection for me. It started of badly, and ended off badly too. I am experiencing many different thoughts and feelings as my fingers are moving, typing this post. It is just very difficult to pen everything down, in words.

What I have gone through today, just simply tells me that I am quite a failure. Thinking back, I have never once accomplished something big in my life. From young, I learn to be a quitter. Whenever faced with difficulties, I always take the easy way out which is quitting. Have I ever pushed on and complete a task that requires my heart and soul? Well, most probably on minor issues, not big major ones that has impacted myself, not to say the people around me. My parents do not want me to go through the hard way of life, and so, I have been spoon-fed since I was born. When trouble arises, a phone call to either of my parents would solve all matters. Frankly speaking, I have never handled a situation myself before. I guess that I am rather spoilt. I remember having a teacher that scolded me, for being too reliant on my parents. I gave him a smug look then and he screamed his head off at me.

I can't allow any failures to any of my test and examinations no longer. I really need to pull up my socks and buck up. Mathematics used to be one of my strongest subject ... But look what it has become now. I have never passed my Mathematics before, for the whole of this year. I cannot allow this to happen. I am going to make that difference, and pass my Mathematics for once. It all lies in my hands, tonight and tomorrow.

I just feel very disappointed in myself. Sigh.

I NEED A HUGGGGG!
;D

♥ 12:27 AM